||[Jan. 21st, 2005|04:57 pm]
|||||1-2 Step by Ciara||]|
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG MY LIVEJOURNAL'S BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!! I <3 u LJ STAFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lmao not. They found out I was 12 so then my dad had to mail them this annoying little permission email... *sighs* Ok now where did we leave off? So I think Alicia like got scared into realizing how immature she was being and finally agreed to get out of my life, except for when she was at Dannie's house and IMed me from there and omfg i was SO mad. (Yay! I'll interrupt this to say that my Nano kitty just turned 10 lol). So then yesturday Alicia, Melissa, and Esha were being bitches to Dannie from what I heard, and so I decided to call Alicia's house just to mystify her. And then she wasn't home and her mom read the caller ID so then she called my house and she was all polite about it and everything and said we shouldn't be mean to each other because maybe we'll be friends again someday... Yeah right. I was like randomly shaking because it was scary--I dunno why--and then Alicia calls me and she's like, "Um, hello? You called me!?" or something like that so I hang up. She did it a second time and then the third time it was all funny cuz she sounded despearte and curious cuz she's like, "Dude, don't hang up! I wanna know why you called me." Lmao it's like she's crossing her fingers that I'm calling her house to make up with her and be her little friend again ;-). LMFAO ok so then I just gave her the bried answer of, "For fun!" cuz I didn't know what to say, so today she IMs me and omg it's so random cuz wow, I didn't get infuriated at all during the whole thing which lassted like five minutes... *pride* Then it's weird cuz Esha IMed me asking why I wasn't there yesturday or something, and... wtf? She had to sign off.... And... wow I don't really want anything to do with her if she's all ignorant to Dannie and keeps calling back over and over again to tell her just WHY she doesn't like her.
Okay so the people are stalking me again. It's so fucking annoying. I decided that Mrs. McCullagh's better than Mrs. DiRenzo... It's so funny cuz everyone always makes fun of her for knowing Spanish... lmao. I wrote longer entries on my Xanga when my LiveJournal was gone so go to www.xanga.com/xDoAxSoHxAo .
I'm probably going to Chaverim this summer, with Molly and maybe Jen (whose smart parents might not want her to go because it's unfair for her sister who's going to plain Tavor, which is conveniently what she freakin CHOSE to go to). I'm probably going the first four weeks, so I won't go the last four days... :-/ And I'm going to Israel too (!!!!!) and... what else... Oh yeah omg Ishita might come to NJ! Yes!
So I randomly think it's disgusting when people get straight A's and I feel like last year when I made sure I didn't do too good in school lol. Then I'm starting to be disgusted at the way everyone around me always seems to be takling and I'm just like sitting there like whaaaaaaaa? zoning out. And I'm starting to feel ugly again. Wow. First of all my cat scratched me across the face and now I have these random three dots there. It would look prettier with scars, cuz people might think they're pimples (OH no Dasha wouldn't want that would we now!) But then everyone would think I cut, and plus I have two random scars on my hand that just like appeared out of nowhere... My face is getting more pimples cuz for the last few weeks, everyday I get ice cream and chips and shit like that in the cafeteria. Like today for lunch I had Ruffles, a chocolate chip cookie, a Reeses ice cream, and then I got hot fries too... I just decided I'll go on a diet, not to get skinnier cuz if I was skinnier than I am now I'd probably be ugly, but so the pimples disappear. *dread-filled sigh* Health food.... Then it's all random because I don't get anything in Treasure Island, probably cuz I zone out everytime I start reading, just like everyone else. My parents care the most if I fail Math or Language, probably, so when the test comes I'll get the simplified version from the library and just read that. Then I don't get Science, either, cuz... I just don't. Well... I dunno. Like I wasn't there when we went over one of the major worksheets and crap like that... And we have jeopardy on Monday and the test on Tuesday. :'( I got rubber bands for my braces and it's all annoying cuz I keep forgetting to put them in when I finish eating... I keep getting less and less organized... Everytime I look around my room when I'm falling asleep I keep telling myself that tomorrow I'm gonna find all the things I lost and need to find and shit like that, but it never happens cuz when I'm not doing homework, I'm on the computer, and worrying about Bella, who I think might be mad at me cuz I hardly said hi to her on Wednesday cuz I was on the phone with Jen, and then I'm seriously--this time SERIOUSLY--considering quitting flute, because Berk just doesn't get the concept of not lecturing me in the middle of my lesson. Oh so how come she says she's sorry about making me cry in the middle of her lesson, and then next time she's giving me a lecture she fucking mentions it! Bitch! I really wanna quit right now, I just wanna forget her and convince my mom to find me another teacher, who won't act like a bitch or make me cry or scream at me to practice of go, "hahhaha!" or bore me to death or MAKE MY LESSON END LIKE AN HOUR LATER THAN IT'S SUPPOSED TO END *eh-hem!!!!!!* My mom's acting like she wouldn't care if I quit but all of that is bull shit.
I haven't done anything for WAIL for a long time either. I don't really know anyone good for it yet. And I don't know what's wrong with me but almost everything my mom says to make makes me mouth curses behind her back. I wish it was summer... and I always like count down to each weekend. We might have a snow day on Monday... So wear ur pajamas inside out, listen to the radio, and sleep with a spoon under ur pillow... :'
Still haven't met Dannie. I'm planning to a.) meet her, b.) go to the mall with probably Kate, Uche, Marylin, JD, and Steve, c.) have Kristine sleep over my house, d.) have Kristine, Jen, and Gabbi sleep over my house (i'd hafta suck upforever for that lol) and... there was something else but I can't remember.... wow. Oh yeah e.) I might go shopping with Uche and we wanna go to the movies again and we wanna go to sixflags in the summer, but i'll already have been there from Chaverim... If you're reading this you BETTER comment and make me feel special...